Saturday, January 24, 2009

Travelling God Love

There is something so full about loving to travel, and not needing to come home -- but also something a little sad about it.

I have the opportunity to travel a lot in this job, and I find myself not minding being gone for two weeks - even thinking I wouldn't mind going for two additional weeks. And while that is great, and I love that I am independent and a strong woman, it is a little sad, too. Knowing that there are only two things to come home to. My animals and Michelle. Two things that I love deeply, but sometimes I wonder if my life is consists mainly of my work, and whether that is enough.

I know that sounds very "woe is me" - but I don't mean it to. I am insanely happy with having three things in my life in KC: my animals, Michelle and my job. But sometimes I wonder if I am shrinking my world down to a point where I am not doing what God wants me to. I love my life as it is - but not sure that I am doing enough to love the world. That may sound rather "granola-ish", but it's true. We are called to love people. And while I love people -- I love them when I see them. Which I don't that often. But, nor do I really crave wanting to. I enjoy spending each night with Michelle, and sometimes Sean.

I will let you know as I get more clarity on this - and I hope I do soon!